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Feb 02 2009

Snow! Snow! Snow!

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Last night~~

This morning~~

The footprints are Liam’s. He got all the way to the bus stop to discover that all the buses and trains were cancelled. So when he walked back he did so in his own footsteps so as not to make another trail :p He’s happy too cos he’s got the day off work now.

I’m off college too but I’m a little annoyed about it to be honest. Sure its great to have a day off but this week was our installation and we need every minute of every day in the studio to do it :( We’ve got one less day now and it all has to be finished by Friday afternoon! We’ve got no chance!

If college gets cancelled for the next few days then there won’t be an installation…now that I don’t mind :D

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Jan 21 2009

Life is getting me down

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I feel crappy. I feel like all the happiness has been sucked out of me. I just wish I knew what could cheer me up :(

I bet Kat and Jess today that I could find the negativity in anything. I won…

I just feel like everything has collapsed around me. My passion and motivation are gone. I feel like I have no one to talk to. If I continue to complain to the only people I do talk to - I’m not gonna be much fun anymore. They must get sick of listening to me.

Everything is slipping away and I feel so lonely. Everything that I used to know is gone - even the little things. Like eBay for example - it used to be a great place for me to find nice things for cheap and right now I haven’t got the money to buy things from shops so I turned to eBay….its just as bad as the shops now! I can’t seem to get a bargain on there at all. Either that or I’ll miss a bargain by 10 mins or something stupid.

That might sound so silly but its just one of so many things.

I get so jeaous too. Jealous of other people’s success, of the fact that Liam’s mum calls him on a regular basis (I’m lucky if mine will even answer her mobile), of people who can make costumes when they want to, of people who can afford to buy nice things, eat nice food (or food in general), who have the time to enjoy their lives.

I can’t enjoy mine…and I know that my youth is being wasted away on all these unfair things. I should be enjoying my youth and making the most of it. But circumstance has got me good.

I feel like I’m fading away, that I’ll be forgotten, that no one will care.

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Jan 19 2009

Looking back at 2008

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2008:

2008: General:

Lost a friend?
I don’t think so. Andrea maybe since I haven’t spoken to her in a while. But it doesn’t matter.

Stayed single almost the whole year?
No. I was with Liam all year.

Kissed someone new?
No.

Had your heart broken?
No.

Had a stalker?
No.

Done something you’ve regretted?
Plenty of things that I should regret, but its all so long gone that I’ve forgotten all the things I should be regretting.

Cut class?
Uh once I think. I didn’t have the energy or motivation one morning so I didn’t go to my morning lecture.

Were involved in something you’ll never forget?
Um…probably…except I have forgotten.

Visited a different country?
France and Spain. Disneyland Paris for my 21st and the trip out to Spain to see my mum.

Lost something important to you?
I don’t think so. If I did lose something, the fact thatI’ve forgotten means it wasn’t that important in the first place.

Got a gift you adored?
My laptop :)

Dyed your hair?
Loads of times. Various reds, a flash of orange and ultimately black…but I’ll be dying it again soon.

Read a great book?
The Other Boleyn Girl - couldn’t put it down.

2008:Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?
No.

Did you get anything for Valentine’s day?
Um…a drawing I think.

Did you meet anyone special?
Kat and Jess. College wouldn’t be the same without those girls. Beks and Lou, met those guys back in May I believe :)

Did you fall in love?
I fell out and back in again?

Do you like someone right now?
Liam always.

2008: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yep. All the people at college, and of course anyone new I met at expos and cons.

Did you dislike anyone?
A couple of girls on my course deserve a slap.

Did you make any new enemies?
Possibly, most of the girls on my course probably don’t like me.

Did you resolve any fights?
I don’t think I’ve fought with anyone other than Liam. But we always resolve those within the hour. Keep your fingers crossed though cos we haven’t fought in ages!

Did you grow apart from anyone?
Andrea completely.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
I don’t put myself wholeheartedly into friendships, I don’t trust people because I can’t see why anyone would honestly like me. So I can’t say I regret anything, except maybe believing that Andrea would always be a good friend.

2008: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
Not on my birthday but I did a few days before.

Did you have a party?
No, I’m not into Birthday Parties, I like to do something more unique.

Did you get any presents?
Yeah but I can’t really remember most of them. I know Liam got me a new lens for my camera.

If so what was the best thing you got?
As mentioned above.

2008: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
Incredibly. Personality wise probably not, but I lost a hell of a lot of passion and motivation.

Did you get your hair cut?
Yes, once or twice.

Did you change your style?
Nah, it was short for most of the year. Dying it black might be a change I suppose.

Were you in school?
By Sept yes I suppose.

Did you have a job?
I worked at the surveyors until August.

Did you drive?
A little.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, my sister-in-law and my aunt.

Did you move at all?
Three times! Once into my dads, then back to Chester and then to London.

Did you go on any vacations?
Went to Paris for birthday and to Spain for a bit too.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
I would find what part of me I lost and try to get it back. I miss happy, non-complaining, naive Carrie.

Was 2008 a good year?
No, it was absolute shite.

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
I hope so.

I confess that in 2008 I…
[ ] stayed single for the whole year
[X] made out
[X] kissed in the snow
[X] celebrated Halloween
[X] kissed in the rain
[ ] had your ..heart broken.. wounded.
[ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[X] had/have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
[X] done something you’ve regretted
[ ] kissed under mistletoe

OTHER
[ ] painted a picture
[ ] wrote a poem
[x] ran
[ ] posted a blog on MySpace
[x] visited a foreign country
[ ] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you werent
[ ] partied to celebrate the new year
[] cooked a disastrous meal
[] lost something/someone important to you
[ ] lied about how old you were
[] prank called someone
[] broke a promise
[x ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[ ] cried over a ..broken.. wounded heart
[] disappointed someone close
[] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[X] cried over the silliest thing
[ ] was never home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[x ] had a high cell phone bill
[ ] had a fist fight
[ ] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time

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Jan 13 2009

The Winner Loses All

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I don’t know about you but I am not a winner. I do not win competitions, the lottery, arguments…I will always lose out to someone else. Today I thought my luck had changed.

While on my lunch break I checked my voicemail. Mobile phones are strange sometimes when they decide not to let you know you have mail. To my surprise I had a message from a Skylite Studios saying I had won a competition on Get Me A Ticket.com. It was for a makeover/photoshoot at their London studios. Now you can believe my excitement. I won! I won! I actually won something! 

I started to imagine what might happen. Being pampered in style, being treated like a celeb. Having my nails done, hair (I’m in dire need of a haircut), make-up and then a photoshoot! My step-mum and step-sister have already had this treatment before, recieving one of those day-out voucher things for their birthdays - from my dad - I on the other hand have never had one. My head was full of white walls and people fussing over me, what it would be like when it was all over with a gorgeous new expensive hairstyle etc.

After my last lesson of the day I decided to do a quick bit of research about the company. The first page that came up was this: http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=597220. Basically its a scam. You have to pay a deposit of £30 to hold the appointment and then you have to pay for your photos which can be £150 and more. Somehow I don’t think thats winning…is it? Cry My first big win and it turns out to be fake. Isn’t that just my luck.

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