A London Gal

I bet Kat and Jess today that I could find the negativity in anything. I won…

I just feel like everything has collapsed around me. My passion and motivation are gone. I feel like I have no one to talk to. If I continue to complain to the only people I do talk to - I’m not gonna be much fun anymore. They must get sick of listening to me.

Everything is slipping away and I feel so lonely. Everything that I used to know is gone - even the little things. Like eBay for example - it used to be a great place for me to find nice things for cheap and right now I haven’t got the money to buy things from shops so I turned to eBay….its just as bad as the shops now! I can’t seem to get a bargain on there at all. Either that or I’ll miss a bargain by 10 mins or something stupid.

That might sound so silly but its just one of so many things.

I get so jeaous too. Jealous of other people’s success, of the fact that Liam’s mum calls him on a regular basis (I’m lucky if mine will even answer her mobile), of people who can make costumes when they want to, of people who can afford to buy nice things, eat nice food (or food in general), who have the time to enjoy their lives.

I can’t enjoy mine…and I know that my youth is being wasted away on all these unfair things. I should be enjoying my youth and making the most of it. But circumstance has got me good.