A London Gal

Last night~~

This morning~~

The footprints are Liam’s. He got all the way to the bus stop to discover that all the buses and trains were cancelled. So when he walked back he did so in his own footsteps so as not to make another trail :p He’s happy too cos he’s got the day off work now.

I’m off college too but I’m a little annoyed about it to be honest. Sure its great to have a day off but this week was our installation and we need every minute of every day in the studio to do it We’ve got one less day now and it all has to be finished by Friday afternoon! We’ve got no chance!

If college gets cancelled for the next few days then there won’t be an installation…now that I don’t mind

~Ok much needed update~

~★★ bai bai!

I feel crappy. I feel like all the happiness has been sucked out of me. I just wish I knew what could cheer me up

I feel like I’m fading away, that I’ll be forgotten, that no one will care.

2008:

OTHER
[ ] painted a picture
[ ] wrote a poem
[x] ran
[ ] posted a blog on MySpace
[x] visited a foreign country
[ ] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you werent
[ ] partied to celebrate the new year
[] cooked a disastrous meal
[] lost something/someone important to you
[ ] lied about how old you were
[] prank called someone
[] broke a promise
[x ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[ ] cried over a ..broken.. wounded heart
[] disappointed someone close
[] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[X] cried over the silliest thing
[ ] was never home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[x ] had a high cell phone bill
[ ] had a fist fight
[ ] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time

I want these so badly:

I saw them in Office before Xmas for £49.99 and wanted them. I saw them in the Office sale a few days ago for £30 and wanted them. And now they’ve gone down to £25 and I still want them…but the question is do I spend some of my loan on them even though I know I shouldn’t?

T_T but I hate money…

Money is the real issue at the moment. I won’t go too much into it because you’ll just get confused but basically money rules our lives at the moment, we can’t do anything without it. And we don’t have any.

We’ve been trying to get off BT for a while now because they want all our money. And now that we’re leaving them they want even more money but they want it for unfair reasons. BT expect you to pay for their mistakes. Just after xmas we paid out £280 to them for a mistake they made. And now we’re paying about another £150 to them because they didn’t tell us that when we moved they set up a new 12 month contract even though we’d already been with them for 6 months - therefore we should have only had 6 months left with them. We set up the contract in March last year, so you would figure it would be over by March this year. Meaning we wouldn’t have to pay a huge cancellation fee. But no - they started a NEW contract from when we moved in September last year meaning we have to pay until next September!! 

I feel like my life is plagued with these kinds of dilemnas at the moment. And because I’m a student and my partner only works part time, there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. We’re stuck in a bad financial situation until the market turns around. There is a severe lack of jobs because companies are having to cut down on staff. So part time work is just impossible to find!

There’s no help for us either….we just have to keep going…until eventually we internally combust from the stress.

I don’t know about you but I am not a winner. I do not win competitions, the lottery, arguments…I will always lose out to someone else. Today I thought my luck had changed.

While on my lunch break I checked my voicemail. Mobile phones are strange sometimes when they decide not to let you know you have mail. To my surprise I had a message from a Skylite Studios saying I had won a competition on Get Me A Ticket.com. It was for a makeover/photoshoot at their London studios. Now you can believe my excitement. I won! I won! I actually won something! 

I started to imagine what might happen. Being pampered in style, being treated like a celeb. Having my nails done, hair (I’m in dire need of a haircut), make-up and then a photoshoot! My step-mum and step-sister have already had this treatment before, recieving one of those day-out voucher things for their birthdays - from my dad - I on the other hand have never had one. My head was full of white walls and people fussing over me, what it would be like when it was all over with a gorgeous new expensive hairstyle etc.

After my last lesson of the day I decided to do a quick bit of research about the company. The first page that came up was this: http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=597220. Basically its a scam. You have to pay a deposit of £30 to hold the appointment and then you have to pay for your photos which can be £150 and more. Somehow I don’t think thats winning…is it? My first big win and it turns out to be fake. Isn’t that just my luck.

Sometimes I wonder about the students at college. They lack the sensibility and maturity of thespians. Basically I go to a prestigious drama school in London. Its extremely hard to get into and it was really important to me to get in. I have no drama qualifications and I’ve never worked backstage at a theatre - therefore I consider myself very lucky to have gotten in. I’m part of one half of the school that deals with the production, rather than the other half: acting, such as my degree Costume Production.

I had two lectures today, the morning lecture was boring as usual for Monday morning, no one ever pays attention and I ended up drawing a couple of WoW characters. The second lecture after lunch is a Text lecture in which we study plays to better understand our industry. It doesn’t interest me much and isn’t really relevant to my degree as all I’ll ever be doing is making costumes not designing them. But its good to know these things nonetheless. Today’s discussion was about a play called The Wonderful World of Dissocia - kind of a Alice meets Oz parody.

So of course this lead to discussion about Alice in Wonderland and the writer Lewis Carroll. It came to light that he loved children, especially girls and also had a passion for photography. Can you tell whats coming? Basically he took photos of nude girls. This is when the whole room started sniggering and calling him a paedophile. The point is though that he wasn’t, he was just a child himself and it made him happy, he was never accused of anything and most of the girls grew up got married and had nothing but praise to say about him. The tutor desperately tried to convey this, trying to explain that it was Victorian England and society was very different then. But that was it - the room was shook up now and no one would let it go. She even tried to use J.M.Barrie as an example (the writer of Peter Pan), he wasn’t a paedo. 

Basically the room just sniggered at everything from that point on. There was this annoying lick arse in the back row cracking pathetic jokes to his friends to make himself look cool. But he just didn’t. 

I got quite fed up and just wanted to tell people they should be ashamed. That it was their modern sick minds that was twisting it. And the poor tutor was just trying to carry on with the lesson.

My question is: Since when have theatre folk been so goddamn immature? I worked hard to get into drama school and I’m not gonna sit in my lectures and take the piss out of everything. I may not agree with a lot of what is being taught to me but I believe that a little bit of respect and understanding is needed. 

Ok so first blog…

There’s always the problem of “what do you write on a Sunday?” Its usually the most uneventful day of the week. Its also the day before Monday (cue back to college). I spent a great deal of my Sunday on World of Warcraft. Yes yes I know that it sucks your soul. More than anything its sucks your hours. I get bored easily but always find something else to do on WOW. And after discovering Ventrillo (a program that allows you to chat with friends while playing WOW) its very difficult to pull me away. 

 I should feel guilty - I have a ton of work I should be doing for college. But I don’t. Its SUNDAY! And I desperately wanted to get to level 40!

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Ok so plans for this blog will be similar to my LiveJournal (except no nosey friends). Hopefully I’ll be able to fill it with photos. Its always nice to see a photo.